1.28.2011

Kay Ryan, the Peeving of Poets, and the Incredible Hidden Sedgwick Hall

Last night, I drove out to Rockhurst University to see former Poet Laureate Kay Ryan read as part of the Midwest Poets Series. Typically, driving to the heart of the Plaza to see a poetry reading on a Thursday night isn't my idea of a good time,  but Kay Ryan is a self-avowed introvert-curmudgeon. She makes a lot of fuss about not being a part of the poetry community, enough so that I thought that this event might be my only opportunity to see her read. 

Kay Ryan

So I went, giddy and tired and easily disoriented as I was from my long work week. I had a very hard time finding Sedgwick Hall (mostly because I didn't realize that Rockhurst is just a tiny, unmarked, nearly invisible wart on the buttocks of  the UMKC campus). I drove around for twenty minutes, walked around for another twenty, and asked four different people before I finally stumbled across the building completely by chance!

I was very late, but I decided that half a Kay Ryan reading was better than no Kay Ryan reading at all. And I was right. Despite her hermetic self-image, Ryan was actually very well-spoken and funny, and she charmed the audience with ease. She had the funny habit of reading her poems aloud twice, which was great, actually. 

Ryan's poems are all small--clever, compact little things that work very hard to say something very smart in as little space as possible. Her poems are elegant and deep and often funny, and they really beg for two or three re-readings--despite their size and apparent accessibility, they require thought and patience.

Here are two of my favorites from the reading. I especially liked what Ryan said about "Leaving Spaces"--she believes that people are uncomfortable with emptiness and quiet in life--and I've always loved the humor, fantasticality, and burning truthfulness of "He Lit a Fire with Icicles".

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By Kay Ryan

It takes a courageous
person to leave spaces
empty. Certainly any
artist in the Middle Ages
felt this timor, and quickly
covered space over
with griffins, sea serpents,
herbs and brilliant carpets
of flowers – things pleasant
or unpleasant, no matter.
Of course they were cowards
and patronized by cowards
who liked their swards as
filled with birds as leaves.
All of them believed in
sudden edges and completely
barren patches in the mind,
and they didn’t want to
think about them all the time. 

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He Lit a Fire with Icicles

by Kay Ryan 


For W.G. Sebald, 1944-2001
This was the work
of St. Sebolt, one
of his miracles:
he lit a fire with
icicles. He struck
them like a steel
to flint, did St.
Sebolt. It
makes sense
only at a certain
body heat. How
cold he had
to get to learn
that ice would
burn. How cold
he had to stay.
When he could
feel his feet
he had to
back away

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Despite how much I like Ryan, I did manage to rub her the wrong way when she signed my book after the reading. I asked her if she read a lot of Marianne Moore. In response, Ryan scowled at me. "Well," she said, "I read her long after she could have affected me. I read her when I was young. She bugged the hell out of me." She paused, squinted her eyes up at me, black fountain pen poised over my copy of The Niagara River. "You know, the problem with being a female poet is that you get compared to other female poets all the time." Another squint, a little scowl. "You know?"

"Uh, yeah," I said. "I suppose. Thanks again--it was a lovely reading!" I said, backing away from the table, trying not to giggle. I had peeved a poet! A poet laureate, in fact! (It seemed like some dubious sort of accomplishment.)

I was thinking, It's not like I compared you to Sylvia Plath or Anne Sexton or Rita Dove, lady! It's a question that makes good sense to me. I was thinking about "To a Snail," one of my favorite poems by Marianne Moore. If ever a poet made a virtue of contractility, it is Kay Ryan, whether she likes to think so about herself or not.

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To A Snail

 
If “compression is the first grace of style”,
you have it.  Contractility is a virtue
as modesty is a virtue.
It is not the acquisition of any one thing
that is able to adorn,
or the incidental quality that occurs
as a concomitant of something well said,
that we value in style,
but the principle that is hid:
in the absence of feet, “a method of conclusions”;
“a knowledge of principles”,
in the curious phenomenon of your occipital horn.

Marianne Moore


1.21.2011

Winter Is Magical!

And then you have to go outside. Gah! The cold--it burns!

In case you don't live in Kansas (or are an inveterate agoraphobe who never leave his/her house), it's been snowy and then cold and then snowy and then really, really cold again. I haven't been going outside much. In fact, pretty much all I've been doing is sitting on my couch attired in sweatpants, a hoodie, thick socks, and a lap-loving cat. My constant companions have been soup and herbal tea and young adult fantasy novels (Suzanne Collins and Phillip Pullman!) and a very cozy knitted blanket. Occasionally a Boulevard Amber Ale (my new favorite winter beer) makes it into the mix. Aaaaand that's about all the variation you're going to get.

Besides hibernating, I've also been extremely busy at work with the beginning of the semester and enrollment season. I like being busy and all, but dang! I don't even want to think about how many enrollment emails I've been sending. Obviously, I've been completely unmotivated to turn on my computer at home for blogging. The thought of it makes my fingers ache.

All in all, things have been good here. Maybe I'll get back into the swing of blogging soon. Or maybe it's time to start Catching Fire. Hmmm . . . decisions, decisions, decisions!

1.01.2011

2010 Recap

As much as I'm looking forward to 2011, 2010 has already been incredibly novel for me. My life has changed drastically in the last year, and so have I. So instead of posting a list of resolutions or expectations for the new year, here's my list of my favorite novelties of 2010--I think they're worth commemorating.
  1. Singlehood: Breakups are hell, but, damn, I love doing what I want to do when I want to do it. There are benefits to being single--I'm starting to remember that.  :)
  2. New Job: No, make that three new jobs, including two part-times and my first real nine to five (not to mention the occasional freelance editing work!). Entering the working world has been challenging, but I love paying my own way.
  3. New Apartment: Downtown Lawrence. Hardwood floors. Big, bright windows. Terrible insulation and laughable wiring and one very pathetic window unit. But I love, love, love it.
  4. New Friends: You know who you are!
  5. Yoga: I am officially that obnoxious yoga-obsessed person! I think a lot about posture now, and balance, and the importance of feeling strong every day.
  6. Healthy Living: In general, I've eaten a lot better, drank a lot less, and worked out a lot more than I have since before I started grad school. It's been great, and it hasn't felt like discipline, really--more like setting myself up to feel good every day.
  7. Music: I've been listening to music constantly these past few months, especially more of the ladies (Ingrid Michaelson, Kate Nash, Nina Simone, Cat Power, Erykah Badu, and Janelle Monae) and indie stuff (Ratatat, Arcade Fire, Yeasayer, and Phoenix). I've missed it!
  8. TV Obsessions: Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Doctor Who have improved the hell out of my life. Thank you, Netflix, Joss Whedon, and BBC!
  9. New Style: My hair is red again, and shorter, and saucier, with stiff little bangs. I wear my big nerdy hipster glasses every day now. I've bought all of my favorite clothes within the past six months. I look and feel like a whole new woman.
  10. New Ways of Thinking: I've worked hard this year to think in healthier ways. I try to be kinder to myself, more understanding of others, and more protective of my own mental health. It's hard work, challenging my own assumptions about the world and shedding my mental poisons, but it's work that has made me feel happier and healthier than anything else this year.
As far as years go, 2010 has been both incredibly difficult and richly rewarding, and I expect nothing less from 2011. So I'll leave you with this, one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite books of 2010: Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters to a Young Poet.
People have (with the help of their conventions) oriented all their solutions toward the easy and toward the easiest side of the easy; but it is clear that we must hold to what is difficult: everything alive holds to it, everything in Nature grows and defends itself in its own way and is characteristically and spontaneously itself, seeks at all costs to be so and against all opposition. We know little, but that we must hold to what is difficult is a certainty that will not forsake us.
Thanks, Rilke, and happy 2011 to all!